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If you are my friend, why have you not spoken the words? If you are my friend, why have you turned and walked away? If you are my friend, why have you taken the other side? If you are my friend, why have you insulted me? If I am your friend, treat me with some respect. If you are my friend, then don’t ignore me. If you are my friend, then don’t laugh at my falls. If you are my friend, then don’t humiliate me. If I am your friend, I can’t be your stupid pet! If I am your friend, show it! If you’re my friend, state it, With all of the warmth, and meaning. Like a true friend of mine would.

It’s time to put it behind us. As much as it pains me to say this, I will no longer try to mend what has been done. I was willing to try to fix our friendship and build it back to what it once was. But you aren’t. So I am no longer going to try. I am going to move on and focus on my future. I am officially going to put you in my past, since that’s where you seem to like to stay anyways…in the past. You were truly one of the best friends I ever had and I will miss how close we were greatly. So with that being said, this is my final goodbye. I will no longer try to mend things nor will I make any attempt to contact you. Goodbye.

You’ve Got A Friend In Me.

I originally wanted to write you a letter about why you’re my best friend and saturate it with all the generic reasons and adorable anecdotes, but I’m not going to do that because you already know why you’re my best friend. If you didn’t, we probably wouldn’t have remained friends all these years.

Thank you for always being closest to me even when we were in separate time zones and separate stages of life. Thank you for not letting us get split by dumb facts like distance or time. Thank you for never giving up on our friendship, for never shrugging and being like “Eh, things change, people change” and drifting away vaguely because we’re victims of circumstance. We all get distant to a certain degree when we make huge transitions but you didn’t let me get very far because you knew what was truly important.

Thank you for taking care of me in every way possible, for being there when no one else was or wanted to be and when you didn’t even have to be. Everyone has those friends who are close but not really; who you always feel kind of awkward and weird about asking for help and like you have to clarify you’ll do them some kind of favor in return, but you’re not one of those. You never got mad when I didn’t call you for weeks on end because I was too busy with uni. You were and are there for everything, no bargaining or explanations needed.

Thank you for believing in me when I was too weak and exhausted to believe in myself. Thank you for pushing me, for repeating those affirmations that don’t mean anything in inspirational films but mean everything when someone who cares about you says them. Thank you for not judging me when I did something really stupid, but also thanks for telling me I was an idiot and probably shouldn’t have done the stupid thing. Thank you for always being honest.

Thank you for always knowing who I am and reminding me of that when I forget. Thank you for being genuinely concerned with the outcome of my life and always listening, even when you’re tired. Thank you for telling me the things no one wants to hear and sparing the bullshit advice. Thank you for always being fun even when we’re not having fun. I don’t know how else to explain that.

Thank you for the advice and wisdom you’ve shared with me. It really did help me to accept the process and keep myself honest and nurtured regardless of what was going on. Thank you for being there when I needed you the most. Thank you for helping me through all those tough times. Thank you for being such a good friend no matter what I did; but most of all, thank you for being you.

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